We are living in some strange, strange times, aren’t we? It’s like something out of the future. I mean, I went shopping yesterday morning, and everyone was wearing masks (to say nothing of staying 6′ apart from each other)!
I consider myself lucky, though. Because I am 62, I was able to go into the grocery store at 7 am to do my shopping, and all the meat I needed was available except for ground beef. I had to buy Angus beef instead, which was over $5 a pound, and I was lucky to get that.
This is just so weird to me. I never thought I would be living in such times as this Covid-19 pandemic. Never in my wildest dreams did I think something like this could happen.
The worst part is that I can’t see my family, my little granddaughters. I miss them so much. And I have no idea when I’ll be able to see them again. I was supposed to go over my twin granddaughters’ house for their 7th birthday party on Mar. 21st, but that was right when they were saying not to be in groups over 10 people, so we decided not to take the chance. That was really hard.
Now I look at their wrapped birthday presents on my dresser every day and am reminded how I can’t see them, and the future is so unpredictable. I only pray for their safety and continued good health, as I do for my other little granddaughter in GA, who I also can’t go see.
In fact, I can’t leave my house at all. The governor of TN has issued an order that we need to stay in our houses except for necessities, like food. So I’ve only gone to the store for that and for my prescriptions.
It hasn’t been too hard on me to stay inside, as I am really a homebody to begin with, and work from home as well. So I am used to being home, and this doesn’t bother me too much.
But it is driving my husband up the wall. He is going stir crazy! He is used to going out, but even if he did, there is nowhere for him to go. Everything is closed.
Still, we live on a fairly busy thoroughfare, and I still see cars on the road and I wonder where they are going if everyone is supposed to be homebound. They can’t all be going to work or to the grocery store?
So I spend time on my computer, and I read the headlines, and I read that the US deaths are up to almost 11,000. And that is really frightening. When is this going to end? And how bad is it going to get before it does end?
Today is a beautiful day outside; the sun is shining, and when I go out on the porch to let my dog out, I can hear the birds singing. And I marvel that everything looks so normal. Yet it is not. Not by any means.
Still, in the midst of it I have peace. Because I know that God is in charge. There is nothing that is happening that He is not aware of and is not already in front of. I don’t know what the future holds, but I know that He is already there. So I trust Him. That’s all I can do.
My faith is strong in the midst of this crisis. It has to be, because I need to watch my stress level during this horrible time, so I don’t go into a bipolar episode. I have to watch my nerves and I have to watch my sleep. And I have to take care of myself in spite of what’s going on in the world.
As you do. I beseech you to take care of yourself, no matter what. Even though you are stuck in the house right now, try to maintain some sort of routine, as that is necessary for good maintenance of bipolar stability.
And do whatever it takes to keep your stress levels down. If following the news of Covid-19 causes you to worry, do not watch the news or follow the headlines online. Just trust that everything will be ok in the end. It will take a little time, but it will be ok.
We need to watch ourselves and take care of our bipolar disorder during these trying times, or else things will just be that much worse for us.
Be safe, and be healthy – both physically and mentally.
Wishing you joy and stability.
Remember God loves you and so do I,