The future can seem so daunting and ghastly when you are bipolar. You see how you feel in the present and you hear a voice that tells you the future will just be more of the same or worse. I know that for me, thinking of the future nearly causes paralysis if I am not careful. It is during those assailant times that I must go to God’s word and remember that He tells us, “Do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, they do not sow or reap or gather into barns; yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? Which of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? (Matthew 6:25-26) I have to take one day at a time. I have 24 hours and that is all. I will fix my eyes on that alone. I will refuse to borrow trouble from the future. The present is a gift that I will somehow unwrap and delight in. The bible goes on to say, “Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” (Matthew 6:34) When I think of life in a 24 hour segment I could throw a party! What a relief. Each time my mind starts to obsessively wonder to the future, I aggressively rein it in and refocus. It feels like a fairy tale to live this way. It is such a relief when I throw my anxieties at the foot of the cross and live like it is my only day. It is so hard, nearly perilous to live this way but it can be done. It is a retraining of the mind. I will choose to find joy and peace in this one day and not let tomorrow or next week or next year crowd out my garden of peace with weeds of worry. Worry is a thief and it steals life away like a robber in the night. I guard my merry heart and stand watch so that I do not drift into thoughts of the future. There is a sweet, divine recipe for what ails the worried heart. God provides the secret, the antidote for the disquieted, “But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you.” (Matthew 6:33) The worriment that comes from looking ahead can be stifled in the face of that verse. He is our provider. He is our way-maker. Do not worry, only set your sights on the 24 hours you have to rest from anxious thinking and let God give you an indescribable present.
***Remember, Jesus adores you and always take your meds!