Bipolar Survivor

I was thinking about some of the questions I’ve asked about my bipolar disorder, and how some of them were the worst waste of time that I’ve spent!

I’m talking about questions like, “Why?” and “Why me?”  Well, “Why not?” and “Why not me?”  I mean, I wouldn’t wish this disorder on my worst enemy, but I’m sure this wasn’t like a childish game of duck-duck-goose where God lined up a bunch of people and chose who would have bipolar disorder and who wouldn’t have it!

So asking, “Why me?” is kind of a moot point at this stage.  In my case, according to the research I did when I first began accepting my diagnosis, I found out that bipolar can have a hereditary component to it.  So, since my mom has the disorder, there is a chance that I have bipolar disorder because my mother has bipolar disorder.

This comforts me, because I know that it has nothing to do with me.  It isn’t my fault.  It’s not because I did a bunch of drugs and alcohol when I was a teenager that I got bipolar disorder.  It has nothing to do with getting dropped on my head as a child, or any childhood diseases I may have contracted.

“If not me, who else?”  If I were to give away my bipolar disorder, who would I give it to?  You know, I have had nasty thoughts toward people I have resented at times, but even those people who have treated me the worst I wouldn’t give this disorder to. 

Nobody should have to suffer the mood swings, the psychotic symptoms, the being out of control, the impulsivity, the bipolar episodes, the medication side effects, and all the other things that we have to put up with as bipolar survivors.

Here’s a good bipolar question for you:  “Will I ever get better?”

I like that one, because I believe the answer is, “Yes.”

Of course, it depends on you.  IF you want it bad enough… if you do what you need to do to maintain stability with your disorder… if you take your medication religiously… IF… (a whole bunch of variables)… and you give it time… YES, you CAN get better!

I don’t think I’m anybody special.  I think that if you do what I’ve done, then you can become stable and high-functioning with your bipolar disorder as well. 

Just don’t ever give up!  Keep going at it, and don’t let your disorder get control over you.

Wishing you peace and stability,

Remember God loves you and so do I,

Michele

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