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Memorial Day Musings

Well, it’s Memorial Day. I have no one in the military to remember on this day, just a general remembrance of the many brave men who served this country. But I have been doing some thinking today, of the freedom for which I am very grateful. Ya know, when I was undiagnosed with my bipolar […]

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Facing Mortality

April 15th was the anniversary of my sister’s death. She killed herself 13 years ago. Gosh, I can’t believe it’s actually been that long. In a way, it feels like it was just yesterday. I still feel the pain so acutely. And I miss her so very much, every single day. She was behind me […]

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Do You Believe in Miracles?

Do you believe in miracles? I DO! About three years ago, I was diagnosed with chronic kidney disease (CKD), stage 4. There are only 5 stages, and at stage 5 you need dialysis. The thing is, for the past three years, I have not had ANY symptoms of kidney disease at all! I have been […]

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Faith as Small as a Mustard Seed

I am struggling with something right now. Well, I guess I am struggling with my faith. I know that the Bible says, “If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘move from here to there’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” (Matt. 17:20). […]

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Gradual Acceptance

Well, it’s been over a month since my mom died, and I’m reaching a gradual acceptance of the loss. I guess it helps that for over a year she really hadn’t been my “mom,” but an elderly lady with dementia, who I called every day, but with whom I didn’t really have a conversation. Meaning […]

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Trying to Encourage Dad

Well, It’s been almost a month since Mom died, and in a way it’s gone really fast, and in a way it’s gone really slow. Some days I don’t even recognize that she’s gone – I pick up the phone to call her before I realize she’s not there. I’m sure many people who have […]

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Mom Died, and My Heart is Broken

Mom died on Christmas Eve, and my heart is broken. I miss her so much. She had had trouble breathing, so she had been in the hospital, where they found fluid on her lungs. However, then she got a perforated stomach (we never did find out how), and refused surgery. I think she was just […]

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Mom Going to Rehab

Well, it’s debatable whether Mom is getting better or not. I guess you could say she is better in that she is not combative any more, but that could be because she is no longer in the assisted living facility, because she is in the hospital. She has pneumonia and had trouble breathing, so she […]

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Mom is Not Herself

Mom is just getting worse. Her roommate tells my dad, “She is just not being very nice.” The nurses tell him, “She is being very mean.” And I can attest, according to my last phone call with her, that she is being downright “nasty.” She is just not herself. This is just opposite her personality. […]

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Always Be Yourself

Well, my mom is back in the hospital again. She had gotten out and was in a rehab facility, but she became anemic and her blood pressure dropped to 30 so she fell down and hit her head, and they had to call 911. Remember, this woman is 80 years old, too, so she was […]

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