Unforgiveness is a landmine.  The poison of unforgiveness can put you in a hospital.  The hospitals are full of people who have unforgivenss because it makes you sick .The Bible speaks of an unforgiveness that leads to torment (Matthew 18:34). It is as torture the Bible says.  You know you are in unforgiveness when you rehearse in your mind the same tapes of what happened with a given person or in a given situation.  You go through the play by play over and over and over again in your mind. It is insidious. It makes you feel insane. It has you captive. The Bible also states that, “out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.” (Matthew 12:24)Therefore, you talk about it too even after years and years. No bipolar individual needs the additional torture of dealing with the ramifications of harboring unforgiveness in their heart.  When you hold others as prisoners in your jail cell you will eventually find that you are the only one in that damp prison.  I had blazing unforgivenss for someone years ago.  I was haunted by it and it crippled me.  I was held hostage to it.  When I became a Christian, I was forgiven all of my sins.  But I still did not want to forgive this individual who had so severely robbed me.  I had so many ashes in my life because of this person.  I milked that wound daily.  However, one day I asked God to reveal my true heart to me and He did.  The Bible says that, the heart is desperately wicked, who can understand it?”(Jeremiah 17:9) I was able to take a glimpse of just a portion of how depraved my heart was.  I continued learning about my humanity and the fact that I am capable of anything given the right circumstances.  It is all by the grace of God that I live a godly life and I mess up plenty in all of my efforts to do the right thing.  I also got the deep revelation of Ephesians 6:12 which states, “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.” There is a war going on for our souls at all times.  There is definitely a war going on for the bipolar mind. It was impossible for me to forgive this million dollar debt that I felt I was owed by this other party in my life.  But God gave me the strength to do it.  God revealed to me that I would have never become a Christian if this person had not been in my life to bring me to total brokenness and a state of melancholy madness. I was so wasted that I cried out to God for salvation and I was born again. “God works all things together for the good of those who love Him and who are called according to His purpose.” (Romans 8:28) It is imperative for those with the illness to practice forgiveness on a daily basis.  This includes forgiving yourself from the bottom of your heart for not being whatever it is you think should be because of the illness.  Forgive yourself for not being perfect.  Forgive yourself for being so extreme.  Forgive yourself from vacillating from good behavior to bad behavior and anything in between.  Forgive yourself for self medicating.  LOVE YOUSELF and walk in the PEACE of FORGIVENESS daily! Always remember that our beautiful, loving Father God gives us,”beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness…” (Isaiah 61:3)

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