If I compare myself to others often I will feel way too good or way too bad about myself.  Neither one is good.  It is such a trap from the devil to compare myself with individuals who do not feel the burn of bipolar. It used to send me straight over the edge into self condemnation town.  I would go to the lower recesses of hell with blinding self rejection.  The devil would squeal with delight as I turned my back on myself and gave into lies and self pity.  I would allow these highly toxic thoughts to punish me in my broken state until I was unglued.  At the time I was not confident in who the Lord says I am. I insecurely c0mpared myself to everyone.  It became crucial for my wellbeing to memorize scriptures pertaining to my identity in Christ as His dearly loved daughter.  I am a daughter of the most high God.  "I am my beloved's and my beloved is mine." (Song of Solomon 6:3) "I am the apple of His eye..." (Psalm 17:8) "I am fearfully and wonderfully made" (Psalm 139:14) "Sixty queens there may be and eighty concubines and virgins beyond number but my dove, my perfect one is unique the only daughter of her mother the favorite of the one who bore her.  The maidens saw her and called her blessed. The queens and concubines praised her." (Song of Solomon 6:8,9) "All beautiful you are my darling, there is no flaw in you." (Song of Solomon 4:7) "All glorious is the princess in her chamber; her gown is interwoven with gold." (Psalm 45:13)  As I started meditating on verses like these my level of security began to grow.  I learned that I have enormous value as God's little princess.  He adores me all the time in every way ...His heart explodes with love and He lavishes it on me throughout the tender moments of my life whether I am howling from the madness or at sweet peace in my bed.  He loves me over the moon and because He can love and accept me as I am ...then I too can be comfortable and perfectly content in my own skin! When I get tempted to compare, I just recall His promises and the fact that He has a special plan for my life that is unique unto me.  If I but knew the plan and call He had for my life I would never entertain thoughts of wanting to be anybody else...I trusted and followed God and now I am watching His plan for me unfold.  Once I could not say I was happy to be me but now with God's help, I can say it cheerfully!

***Remember, Jesus adores you and always take your meds!

C.C Brighton