The bible speaks about intoxication as being sinful.  As a Christian, I feel that it is fine for an individual in moderation.  But God has gone out of His way to show me that He does not want me to partake in drinking (obviously extracurricular drugs would be wrong and very harmful as well).  I have been on just about every prescription drug out there and each time the doctor said drinking mixed with my meds was detrimental.  I know people with the madness who are not on prescription drugs self medicate to get by.  That is so understandable…who wouldn't?  The illness buzzes through your mind swirling through like a tornado leaving you at its mercy. Many times bipolar made me feel so undone that all I wanted to do was become comfortably numb (Pink Floyd). If it were not for my deep, personal relationship with Christ and all of my warm, sacrificial friends and family, I would have been swallowed whole by the illness.   The temptation to go lay down in the deep sea of anesthesia is so seductive and trance like.  It seeks to have you and the devil will stop at nothing to take your life and let it ebb away into utter darkness.  Even on meds that work well, I am still very tempted at times to put my health and progress aside and roll over into the land of self medication.  If it happens, it happens.  I had to learn the hard way years ago and the Lord was so full of Hosea love as He wooed me to a grander place in life free from those shackles.  It can be like bondage that only the Lord can heal and others can pray too in order to break these generational curses and strongholds.  Jesus showed me that He had rainbows for me to slide down and butterflies for me to ride on.  He had a life of splendor waiting for me if I would just seek Him and come after Him with all my heart.  "You will make known to me the path of life; in your presence is fullness of joy; in your right hand there are pleasures forevermore." (Psalm 16:11) "My presence will go with you and I will give you rest."(Exodus 33:14) I learned that there was a spiritual intoxication that can occur when you are drunk in the Lord’s spirit.  It is holy laughter and it is a gift from God that can occur and it is not like earthly laughter.  I do not feel adequate to describe the supernatural in my writing so I will just say it is indescribable.  I feel that any other type of  intoxication is only a counterfeit for the true gift of God.  For me, I do quite well with my meds and Jesus.  It is a majestic way to roll!

***Remember, Jesus adores you and always take your meds…

C.C. Brighton
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